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Beast by Paul FR Hamilton



From the forthcoming novel Mortal Companion


Normally, Henri would not bring his fine pair of matched sorrel geldings to this poor part of Paris. He was very choosy about which streets he trusted with his fine coach with the German-milled springs and the seats upholstered in Spanish leather. But he had no choice tonight. He had missed his customary roast beef dinner at the Cafe Jolie, the trilled flirtatious greeting of Madam Rousseau, his two glasses of red wine, the small salad afterward to cleanse the palate, and to finish, the little cup of espresso with lemon peel and cardamon. Not only was he bringing his unusual passenger to her squalid destination, he was going to wait to take her home once her unspeakable business was concluded.

That passenger was Adulfa, wearing a man's expensive evening suit and a top hat, the apparel she favored during the 1930s. She carried a cane with a ruby knob and wore a fashionable short, black wool cape. Nobody would catch her wearing a man's shirt and suit coat with a long skirt, like the faux-butches who frequented Le Monocle. But then, Adulfa did not have to worry about getting stones thrown at her by angry citizens who disapproved of mannish women. Street toughs and fishwives gave her a wide berth. Adulfa thought to herself, with deep self-satisfaction, I am a tiger with brass tits, a lioness stalking on two legs through the wilderness of mankind.

Tonight, she was bound for the Heavenly Golden Palace of Sleeping Dragon Dreams, an upscale opium den cum brothel run by the fascinating and dedicated libertine, Monsieur Albert Ching. Last year, Adulfa's passion had been for tubercular poets (too wheezy). After a brief fling with absinthe addicts (too sticky), she found herself gravitating toward the hazelnut flavor of humans besotted with the exotic, dark gum of the Turkish poppy (just right). Monsieur Ching was as happy to take her money as he was to receive the coin of any other degenerate Caucasian. Unlike many other opium parlors, the Dragon's Palace did not serve any Chinese patrons. Adulfa suspected him of being quite racist, in his own way. But she saw no reason why Mr. Ching should be any fonder of one part of the human race than she was of the entire species.

The cab driver waited on his bench, chafing his hands and blowing on them, wondering why his stomach hurt. It was a cold, foggy night. Adulfa had placed enough of a compulsion on him to make him keep to his station, but she had not bothered to erase his awareness that he was doing a dangerous and foolhardy thing. Let him worry. She didn't want him in a barmy state of bliss that might result in a heist or an assault that would leave her without normal human transportation. She'd left him her small, pearl-handled derringer, and imprinted the knowledge to use it.

She walked through the carved mahogany doors, handed Monsieur Ching her usual fee (without removing her gloves), and adjusted her monocle before strolling through the corridors. As usual, the palace's beneficiaries ignored her. Given her slim silhouette, Adulfa was often mistaken for a youth, until she opened her mouth to speak. So perhaps the Golden Dragon's habitués were as unaware of her gender as they were of her sinister intentions.

This was the ground floor, where most cubicles were occupied by single men, each attended by a Chinese girl or boy who knew how to load the proper sized bead of opium into the tiny bowls of the pipes, how high the flame must be turned, at what angle to hold the pipe, when to put the pipestem to the client's mouth so he could inhale heaven. There were also larger rooms where friends could chase the dragon together, and hire female or male companionship if they wished. Though this was more for show than actual eroticism. Opium ecstasy apparently superseded the more acrobatic human pleasures.

No one seemed to notice her passing. If the inebriated customers saw her at all, they probably assumed she was on her way to her own cubicle or cubbyhole. They sprawled, heads full of peaceful and lovely visions, dead to any awareness of the Chinese servants' scorn or the murderous intention of the cross-dressed woman with short blonde hair. The people who worked here were already familiar with Adulfa, and let her know, through their exquisite courtesy and bland smiling faces, how much they detested her mission. It would not have surprised her to learn that they knew she was a vampire.

She idly sorted through the personalities of these besotted people, as if they were fortune-telling cards bearing bright illustrations of many possible futures. What mood, what story, what sort of face and body did she wish to dine upon? She had been overindulging of late, so the hunger was not particularly painful. She could afford to take her time tonight and select someone pleasing, somebody special. The palace was such an appropriate venue for her quest. All of the people here wanted to die, or at least escape. She was simply a more rapid means to that end than opium or syphilis.

A pipe at Mr. Ching's did not come cheap, and you had to be brought here by someone who was already in good standing in order to gain membership. So he had taken some trouble with the appearance of his establishment. It was not a hovel of mismatched boards and dirty plaster like some of the more desperate opium dens closer to the shipyards. There were thick rugs with embossed designs in deep blue, soft red, and tan upon on the floor. The walls had been painted red, with occasional ornamentation in black and gold. Here and there stood lacquered screens with carved designs of birds or flowers. Oversized blue-and-white porcelain vases full of fresh flowers stood on pedestals in alcoves. There was plenty of detail to catch and confuse an intoxicated eye, enough pretty comfort to keep the atmosphere tranquil. Though Adulfa could not imagine how anyone could become contentious or rowdy with depression after a bowl of opium. It was the perfect drug, except for the part where you got addicted and felt utterly miserable if you could not afford to smoke a little more of it every day, twice a day, three times a day.

Monsieur Ching's attention to appearances extended to his employees. The Chinese attendants wore red or blue brocade jackets embroidered with the sleeping dragon that was his escutcheon. They wore matching round caps and slippers. Their lower limbs were swathed in loose black trousers. The young men were handsome, the young ladies pretty, and all of them moved as if they were dancing, an everyday grace that charmed Adulfa no end. Their faces were never marred by sadness or anger. The atmosphere of the palace was always calm and measured. No crisis in the outer world had power here.

She yawned. So far, nobody was proving to be as exciting as she had hoped. There was a professional gambler who had lost all of his sponsor's stake. Again. Not even he could pretend to be surprised. A successful businessman with too much money who was angry about his wife's affair with his secretary. What a bore, when he could simply have embarked upon his own adulterous fling. A man in pain from arthritis. Another man in pain from something else, some annoying mortal ailment. A shopkeeper who had acquired the opium habit when he was a young sailor. She almost turned aside for this one, because he had many interesting stories to tell, but his body was past its prime, and she was in no mood to hold a soft, aging body tonight, or look into middle-aged eyes ringed with laugh-wrinkles.

She hesitated before climbing the stairs. Was the second floor going to be more of the same?

Unwilling to come up with another hunting ground this late at night, Adulfa sighed and put her cane to the first step. Up she went, remarkably spry for a person of her advanced age. This floor was arranged differently than the one she had just left. There was one large, circular room, with little individual zones of privacy partitioned off with curtains that could easily be pulled back. The floor was littered with huge, brightly colored cushions. There were much smaller, secret rooms around the perimeter, with hidden peepholes, but the women who came here to shed their troubles did not know about that. Adulfa had paid to be the only spectator at this evening's debauch. The idea of men spying upon women's ways with one another offended her. But she did not enter one of the voyeur's stalls. She stood near the fireplace (this room was kept quite a bit hotter than downstairs), and took it all in.

The party had begun at sundown, as soon as enough worshippers of the scarlet flower had gathered. Already most of the curtains had been withdrawn, so that the women were able to see (and touch) one another. Adulfa watched as two of the female servants approached a reclining woman whose eyes were closed as she savored the twilight state induced by the drug. One of them loosened the brunette's clothing, gradually unbuttoned the top of her dress, and briefly massaged her shoulders before moving down to her breasts. Adulfa felt her breath quicken as the nipples crinkled and became painfully hard. It didn't take them long to completely open her dress, and her naked body lay against a purple cushion, like a gift for royalty.

Smiling at each other, the attendants continued their mission of seduction. One of them tied an ivory object to the drowsy woman's right heel. It was shaped like a plump duck with a long neck, round head, and fat protruding bill that pointed straight up, as if the bird was trying to retrieve a fish held over its head. The other drizzled oil upon the toy, and then her partner bent the woman's leg at the knee and guided the duck's head into her. She had only to move that leg back and forth a few times before the client took over and penetrated herself of her own accord, moving slowly and sleepily.

Oil fell in a thin stream from the enamel pitcher, directed at the top of her sex. One attendant put her index finger there and rubbed the oil in, moving in time with the flexing thigh, calf, and foot that were stroking their owner deep inside. The brunette put both of her own hands at the juncture of her thighs and massaged herself, then one hand moved to her breasts, plucking and compressing them. The attendants smoothed her hair away from her face and withdrew, chatting softly in Mandarin about their lucky numbers, in preparation for buying their daily chances in the lottery. One of them asked the other about an herbal remedy for swollen ankles, to take home to her grandmother.

Other servants had lifted one of their guests into a large piece of fabric that hung from the ceiling like a sling or a hammock that one could sit in. While one of them gave her more opium to inhale, the others parted her legs and inserted a pair of fairly large, enamel balls. Adulfa knew the balls were hollow, and contained smaller, heavier spheres. As their host was rocked to and fro by her attendants, this device would engender a slowly building sensation of pressure and heat within her.

Other, more adventurous or simply more compliant patrons were being guided to one another, arranged in various tableaux which seemed to be the product of the serving girls' imaginations. Several pairs lay head to foot, pleasuring one another with nimble tongues, occasionally dipping their languid fingers into themselves or the other woman.

Adulfa took a few steps to her left to get a better view of a couple who had perhaps known each other before they arrived. The smaller one reclined in a chair with her legs splayed. Her brown hair was cropped fashionably short, and she wore a filmy slip that did nothing to hide her charms. Her bulkier partner had a more masculine short haircut, and thrust between her legs, manipulating an artificial phallus that looked as if it was made of ivory or smoothly polished bone. Her strong hands held her lover's shaved sex open, and Adulfa liked the way the bare skin became shiny with her juices. She relished the play of muscles across the active partner's shoulders. She loved the liquid slapping sounds of penetration, the abrupt changes in breath that communicated a desire for a change in pace or depth. The two of them seemed perfectly in synch, and Adulfa wondered how the woman on her knees obtained her own pleasure.

Eventually she wandered on, loathe to miss any of the fun. There was something that was not easy to arrange--a daisy chain, a small circle of women placed on their sides, each one's pretty mouth aligned with the inner lips of the one who was ahead of her in the circle. This had apparently been one of the first configurations put together this evening, because the participants had roused themselves from their dreams, and were perhaps even a touch frantic in their pursuit of mutual release. Adulfa made herself laugh by going 'round the circle and putting everybody back a pace or two. By the time they each got what they were trying to achieve, perhaps they would value it a little more, having had to work harder for it. Under the incense, Adulfa could smell their sweat and other secretions, and it reminded her of the hunger that had brought her here.

A continuous sobbing sigh came from the women scattered throughout the room, a rising and falling noise that pleaded for just a little more. The attendants moved through the orgy occasionally replacing a small toy with a larger one, or adding their attentions to bring about the crisis of climax. No wonder Monsieur Ching's establishment was so very lucrative, Adulfa thought. Men were so ignorant of women's needs that they were stunned by the simple sight of a girl making herself come, and could not believe it when they learned that each woman has a different way of touching herself. Why the sight of women together should arouse men so much, she could not understand, since the ease and great success of lesbian lovemaking would seem to her to indicate they had no need for male companionship.

Enough of these fruitless speculations about alien psychology. There, curled up like a little lost doggy on a Nile green silk pillow, was Adulfa's pet. She knew it the instant she spotted the girl's Raphael-esque red curls and skin the color of the first slightly blue milk of spring. Not to mention the bruised psyche that oozed out of her, and the remarkably high level of entitlement. Resentment, pride, weakness, indolence, and a desire to be special. A tasty combination. Tabitha (what an odd name) was still fully clothed, having resisted the blandishments of her attendant, who now sat back on her heels and kept her narrow eyes on the pipe and lamp. There, at least, was one person who would not be sorry to see someone leave the palace on Adulfa's arm.

Adulfa took the young lady's elbow and helped her to get up. Tabitha did not like being disturbed, but she came upright rather than do something as undignified as fight off Adulfa's hand. She balked, however, at being led toward the staircase, and so Adulfa saw she would have to take the pipe and its contents along. The lamp she had already in her flat. She pocketed the drugs and paraphernalia, then Miss Cloud of Ruddy Hair was willing to follow her anywhere.

A conspicuous purchase of more opium from Monsieur Ching by the front door was enough to seal the bargain. The girl even patted her hair and bit her lips to pretty herself up when she saw the number of bills that were changing hands. Adulfa was pretty certain that he had no illusions about what happened to the unfortunate inebriates she "helped to find their way home." The only limit he placed upon her was that she must not abduct anyone with a yellow skin. She had toured Japan five years ago and had her fill of geishas and samurai. It was no sacrifice.

Once outside, Adulfa dropped Tabitha's arm, and walked to the coach without looking behind her. The girl ran after what she thought was a young gentleman who could afford costly clothing, somebody who would not be too difficult to manipulate, someone whose embrace, if he should be enough of a boor to insist upon it, would not be aesthetically displeasing.

Adulfa did not help Tabitha into the carriage, which was up a little high for a girl in party shoes. But once the redhead had settled into the seat across from her, the vampire maiden slammed the door with the knob of her cane, and gave her prisoner a conspiratorial chuckle. "Ready for a bit of fun?" she asked, and relished the look of comprehension, the ambivalence on the girl's face as she realized that her companion's sex mirrored her own. So you smoke opium among the devotees of Sappho, Adulfa thought, but you consider yourself high above the cunt-lickers. We'll just see about that. Right now.

"Show me your breasts," she said crisply.

Tabitha gasped, and kept both of her hands on the cold leather seat.

Adulfa's cane spun through the air and struck her across the thighs. It was a crushing pain, and Tabitha cried out from it, and rubbed at the welt.

"I never repeat an order," Adulfa said, clearly prepared to strike again, and derive as much pleasure from it as she would from activities that would be much easier for Tabitha to endure.

The lass reluctantly undid her sheer floral print dress, and allowed it to fall to her waist. She had small, perfectly round breasts with coral pink nipples. At first, she thought to cross her arms in front of them, but one look at Adulfa's avid face persuaded her to drop all defenses.

The ruby-headed cane crossed the gulf of space between them once more. Adulfa drew its almost sharp end tip down Tabitha's cleavage, twirled it at the line between white skin and aureole. The nipples responded, and Adulfa smiled triumphantly. Effective stimulation was always more important than a mortal's illusions about their erotic preferences. She firmly believed there was no such thing as a woman she could not seduce and satisfy, even without using her vampiric power to alter the object of her desire.

"Pull up your skirt and spread your legs," she said, putting a mean note into the sentence.

Tabitha grew pale and stammered. But as she dithered, she gathered up the skimpy skirt in both of her hands and crumpled it just below her belly. She wore stockings held up with elastic garters around her thighs.

"Take those off," Adulfa said, pointing to the thin cloth that covered her mons.

Tabitha was so frightened, she actually used one hand to keep her skirt up while she awkwardly used the other hand to slip her panties off. Once she had removed them, she did not know what to do with them, and Adulfa said curtly, "Drop that!" Henri would find a fragrant little surprise in his empty cab, a tawdry flower.

"What a pretty cunt you have," Adulfa said, being vulgar because she knew it would offend her victim. Tabitha's face was flushed, making her look as if she had applied rouge that was too dark. She was one of those women who get large, perfectly round circles of color on their cheeks when they blush.

Knowing Tabitha would study her slightest gesture, Adulfa put the knob of her cane to her lips and delicately licked it all over. "Well-spread now," she reminded the girl, whose thigh joints were already aching, and put the cane between her legs. Its handle was as large as a goose-egg, a ruby-red oval of handblown glass, so carefully mated to the wood of the cane that there were no sharp, protruding edges. It was just the right size to make an impression on a self-centered beauty who disliked having to pay her own way. There was resistance at the entrance, which Adulfa neatly overcame, and soon Tabitha was hissing as her secret passage was filled.

"Let's just sit and be cozy, shall we?" Adulfa purred. The bouncing of the carriage moved the rod within Tabitha. The vampire kept one hand around it to make sure the motions did not cease. She watched Tabitha through slit eyes, interested to see if this cold and calculating person had a sensual side that could be awakened under duress.

It took more than a mile, but eventually Tabitha began to respond to the relentless pressure within her. She bit her lips as her hips moved involuntarily.

"Go ahead," Adulfa said crudely, "moan and groan and fuck yourself. Lick your fingers and finger your clit. You're my whore for this evening. Put on a good show, if you expect me to light the lamp for you later. Pretty slut."

This bald statement of the situation seemed to give Tabitha permission to reveal the sensations she was experiencing and the need they evoked. Her narrow hips went back and forth, struggling with the piercing head of the cane, and she ran her hands down her own breasts, scratching them lightly, before placing one hand between her own legs and squeezing her sex. She used the palm of her hand to apply pressure to her clitoris, rather than stroking it with a fingertip. Adulfa watched and remembered.

"Do you want me to fuck you?" she asked, escalating her attack on Tabitha's notions of propriety.

"Oh!" Tabitha said.

"Oh!" Adulfa mocked. "Any whore would know the right answer to that question, my dear. Are you too stupid to figure it out? Is my little adventuress less bright than a streetwalker who is more honest about her trade?"

"Yes," Tabitha whispered, her hand going up and down upon her vulva. "Oh, please, I must--I need--put it in me, yes, oh, it's in so deep, it's so big. I--I--"

"You have permission to come," Adulfa said dryly, just before the inevitable storm of weeping and genital contractions took over. It was a good way to plant the idea that Tabitha's sexual response was now under someone else's control. She yawned. When she was not replete with blood, it was difficult for her to empathize with a human in heat, or to remember what it felt like to crave such an inferior delicacy. La petit morte, indeed. Let's hear it for le grande morte.

Withdrawing the cane, Adulfa put the jewel to Tabitha's lips. "Clean it," she insisted. The girl's little pink tongue came and went with surprising rapidity. So she doesn't mind tasting herself, Adulfa thought, then said it out loud.

"I wouldn't mind--" Tabitha began, then stopped herself and stared out the coach's bobbing dark window, one hand stroking her thigh.

"You wouldn't mind, but you can't say it," Adulfa responded meanly, unwilling to give her any credit. She sponged the cane off with her pocket handkerchief and checked their location out the window. They were getting close to her home. A few moments of silence would be useful for bringing Tabitha's anxiety to a peak.

"Nothing from your old life can remain with you now," she explained, sounding almost kindly, when the carriage halted. "Leave your dress and shoes here in the cab. You can keep your stockings on. Walk ahead of me into the house."

Tabitha hesitated, and Adulfa brought the stem of the pipe out of her coat pocket far enough to remind her of the reward that awaited. She was surprised to realize that Tabitha's picture of her social status had gone up as Adulfa's demands had gotten more outrageous. Eccentricity and decadence were apparently associated in her bourgeois imagination with shimmering gold heaps and piles of inherited wealth. This was how Tabitha persuaded herself to obey the latest shocking command. Surely such a wealthy person would not discard her in the morning without replacing her cheap dress with something finer.

Henri had done more than a night of good work for her. Adulfa gave him a generous amount of money and allowed him to remember a brief glimpse of Tabitha's hindquarters. Then she sent him home, and followed Tabitha's slim but nicely rounded buttocks, straight back, and narrow, sloping shoulders down the path that led to the large house where she lived when she was in the mood for a sojourn in Paris.

The path to the house was made of irregularly shaped slabs of slate. It curved between thick stands of night-blooming jasmine. Adulfa was especially fond of this plant, and had it put in around every house she occupied for more than one season. The stones must be cold beneath Tabitha's naked feet. It occurred to Adulfa that she could remove her jacket and drape it over the frightened girl's shivering shoulders. But she dismissed this uncharacteristic, charitable thought with an impatient shrug. Tabitha would know much greater discomfort before she expired. She had been brought here to provide Adulfa with pleasure, and right now, the only pleasure available was the sight of the naked stem of her dark legs, the pale blossom of her torso, the slight tremble that verified Adulfa's power.

A turquoise light bathed the front door, the illumination of an electric bulb dispersed through a blue-green glass fixture. On either side of the door was a pair of panels made of inlaid ebony, bits of mirror, and mother-of-pearl. Adulfa liked the geometric figures, their impersonal symmetry. Tabitha waited, hugging herself and looking down, as if she were shy, poor little wench. Adulfa put her key in the door, but before she would let Tabitha into the warm house, she pressed the redhead's naked skin against the cold decorative panels and inflicted a particularly intimate kiss upon her sulky lips. Adulfa's mouth did not ask for a response; she simply went where she wished to be, and forced Tabitha to yield and be sweet about it.

It was particularly enjoyable to know that her prey's thighs smarted from the pressure of Adulfa's body, and to sense her indignation when Adulfa's insolent hands investigated her buttocks. Adulfa stepped back, drew Tabitha away from the wall, and spun her through the door. Would girls never learn that their false modesty simply attracted attention to the very zones they were pretending to defend?

In the hallway, Adulfa hung up her hat and cloak, and doffed the coat of her suit. Now she was clad in snug black wool trousers, a starched white shirt with a pleated front, and a satin bow tie with a subtle black-on-black design woven into the fabric. Her hair had grown a half-inch past her scalp, she noticed as she removed the top hat. Dawn was only three or four hours away, then. Enough time, surely, to have all the fun that was possible to wring out of slender, small-breasted, wary Tabitha.

The girl was standing awkwardly with her weight on one foot, looking off to the side with an unattractive blank expression on her fact. Adulfa shoved her toward the drawing room and kept after her like a sheepdog until she was safely behind its doors. The fire had to be fed, and she ordered Tabitha to take care of this task, ignoring her plea that sparks might fly and singe her bare skin. "All to the good, my dear," she said, arranging the lamp, pipe, and opium upon a low table. "Injuries become you."

The wallpaper was the color of weak tea, printed with the segmented stalks and thin, long leaves of bamboo, and the floor was covered with a stippled brown-and-cream wool carpet. There was only one chair in the room, a carved wooden throne imported from Malaysia. Tabitha was bright enough to understand that this was not meant for her, and even asked Adulfa's permission to sit on the floor at her feet. Though perhaps her motivation was to get closer to the flame and the pipe it would bring to life.

"You may smoke as much opium as you like," Adulfa said, and handed her an already-loaded stem and bowl. Tabitha hesitated for a moment, not precisely sure of how best to heat the opium, but there was so much of it, she probably would not get into trouble for wasting some. So she attempted to imitate the attendants at Monsieur Ching's, and eventually drew the solace she had been waiting for into her eager lungs. Adulfa relished the smell of a happy mortal and the hazelnut smoke.

They sat there for at least an hour. From time to time, Adulfa would require Tabitha to submit to one sort of vulgar fondling or another. Appeased by the opium, Tabitha moved in a drowsy semblance of enjoyment. But Adulfa was not some rube who could be conned into thinking he had actually driven a courtesan into a state of ecstasy.

There was a mirror with a wrought-iron frame in a corner of the room. Behind it was a larger-than-life framed oil painting of the martyrdom of Saint Sebastian. Adulfa had bought it because it was one of the few works of art she'd ever seen that actually captured the correct color of fresh blood. The saint's loins might be swaddled in yards of prudish white cloth, but his hips thrust lewdly forward to receive the pointed shafts of his enemies. His eyes were turned heavenward, and the look on his face evoked the transports of the brothel rather than the quiet pleasures of the cathedral. Adulfa positioned Tabitha so that she faced the mirror and the painting, and was not surprised to see that she had no response to the work of art. If someone was stupid enough to give her such a fine thing, she would hock it.

Instructing Tabitha that she must remain standing, Adulfa proceeded to stroke her with the sharp claws that her nails had become. The night passed. More quickly and more quickly still her hands flew across the blue-white flesh, striping and scoring its surface with faint red lines. Tabitha writhed, but kept her footing, terror barely kept at bay by the reassuring fumes of the poppy.

"Look," Adulfa ordered her. "Do not turn away. On penalty of death, do not close your eyes."

Then she took Tabitha's chin in her left hand, twisted her neck a bit, and sank her fangs into the tender skin at its base. Even lost in the joy of feeding, she had enough presence of mind left over to rejoice at Tabitha's response--naked fear, repulsion, pain, disbelief, and still more fear.

Adulfa decided to make things still more difficult for her victim, and forced her legs apart. Her hand sank home, ignoring the dryness created by the narcotic. The combination of sexual penetration with the puncture wounds of the vampire's sharp teeth made Tabitha's eyes go wide with panic and confusion. Adulfa wound her own priorities through and over Tabitha's instinct for self-preservation, so that the girl stopped thinking about the danger of being fucked by someone with razors at the end of her fingers. Get hot, Adulfa willed her victim. Pant for me. You've never had it so good. You can't get enough of it. You don't care what you have to do to get more of it. Yes!

Hating herself even more than her captor, Tabitha yielded to Adulfa completely. She had no idea that her thoughts and physical sensations were no longer her own. Her orgasm was a catastrophe. It shook her to her foundations and left her wondering if she'd ever really had one before. If not for Adulfa's hand beneath her buttocks, she would have fallen to the floor.

Adulfa withdrew from her feeding place, contented by the lovely texture and savor of Tabitha's blood. She had not drunk hard enough to still the girl's heart, but she was fairly sure she had not left her enough blood to keep it going for many more hours. Dawn was closer than she had estimated. It was long past time to be abed. Let the wench expire here before the fireplace, Adulfa thought. She would take out the trash tomorrow evening.

"Where are you going?" Tabitha asked, clutching at her ankle.

Adulfa evaded her fingers. "Away from you," she succinctly replied. "Somewhere you cannot go."

"But what about me?" Tabitha cried.

Adulfa shrugged. "What about me?" she mimicked shrilly, and left the room, stopping to take her coat and cape with her. Tabitha might try to steal something valuable or vandalize the house. Who cared? The villa was rented. The only thing Adulfa knew she was unlikely to do was run away, because there was not a stitch of female clothing in the entire place.

When she arose from her coffin the next evening, Adulfa was a little surprised to see that Tabitha had lived through the night, and furthermore had used up every bit of the opium they'd brought home from Monsieur Ching's. "You don't have any food in this house," Tabitha informed her, sounding cross. "What am I to do for breakfast?"

"It's dinner time," Adulfa said absently, looking at her injured and still-bloody neck.

"So take me out to dinner," Tabitha suggested. She had found a length of fabric that Adulfa recognized as an ice-blue damask tablecloth. It took her only a moment to wind it about her body, tuck it here and there, and she looked as if she was wearing a chic evening gown. She did up her hair in one of the matching napkins, after the fashion of Josephine Baker's African headwraps.

"You deserve a reward for such ingenuity," Adulfa said, and went to fetch her coat and hat. She was amused by how quickly Tabitha had accommodated herself to the unique physical requirements of her new sugar daddy. Perhaps getting your neck mauled was less unpleasant than being pummeled by some gin-soaked student of philosophy. Tabitha could gorge herself while Adulfa decided where to go for her own feast. Perhaps, Adulfa thought, I shall slip out without paying for her meal.

But she did no such thing.

Looking back on their first evening many years later, Adulfa could not say for certain when she had decided to keep Tabitha by her side, and allow her to live. Perhaps it was the great joy of clasping and blooding someone whose shock and fear were expressed with unusual intensity. Certainly she was tasty, exceptionally so, though that had never been enough to engender mercy in the past. She was really quite an annoying person--petty, whiny, greedy, vain, ungrateful. But nice to look at and charming simply because she would never try to be anything other than herself. Tabitha was content to be a social-climbing parasite with no particular talent other than her youthful beauty, flawless table manners, and ability to waltz like a swan or charleston like a harlot. No matter how much she enjoyed the pleasure that Adulfa gave her, she never abandoned her firm belief that she was not a lesbian, and did not like or need these perverse caresses. Contact with the supernatural could not budge her stout French atheism, tinged with a dollop of Roman Catholic guilt. Adulfa supposed people loved their dogs or cats for less good reasons. Anyway, she did not love Tabitha. And certainly did not need her. She was simply a convenient amusement that overstayed its welcome by a year or two.

Toward the end, things did, Adulfa was prepared to concede, get a little out of hand. She didn't seem to be able to stop herself from taking blood from the girl too frequently, and taking too much of it each time. She was ambivalent about her decision to allow Tabitha to live, and part of her was curious to see how much hard use she could survive. The girl got more wan, she swooned more often, she became more prone to talking to herself and even had the occasional hallucination. But she went on living, a scion of the durable middle class.

Tabitha almost at once developed the irritating habit of trying to run away while Adulfa was asleep. For a while, it was entertaining to pursue and retrieve her. Adulfa would sometimes wait several days before setting out after her, to allow Tabitha to think that this time she had really gotten away. But eventually that was not very much fun. Tabitha could not seem to think of many original ways to run, or new places to hide. So Adulfa kept her chained to the four-poster Chinese lacquer bed where she preferred to use her.

It's true that Tabitha complained bitterly about this, but why? Adulfa brought her everything she might need--food, books, games, newspapers, art supplies, music, toiletries, even bathed her. The chains were long enough to allow her to reach the commode and bidet. Adulfa also brought her kittens, puppies, fish, a bird or two, though she had trouble remembering to care for them, so they did not last very long. But Adulfa thought the novelty of having a new sort of creature about the place ought to have made up for that. And the opium was never allowed to run out.

The problem was that Tabitha could not entertain herself. She had inadequate inner resources. She longed for the society of others like herself. She would, Adulfa knew, not last very long in the isolation of the vampire's cursed immortality.

The first saffron hint of sunrise made the thin curtains at Tabitha's windows look as if they'd been dipped in piss. Adulfa had left the room at least a quarter of an hour ago, headed for wherever she'd made her daytime nest. The vampire had a disconcerting habit of hiding in places where you wouldn't think to look for her--beneath the floorboards, in between the walls, behind a rack of bottles in the wine cellar. It was as if she had lost any sense of herself as a human being and relinquished even the pretense of needing the comforts that weaker beings relished. When the sun came up, she put herself away like a dish towel going back into the drawer or a photograph being tucked into an album.

Not that Tabitha had ever been lucky enough to discover her jailer in a helpless state. She'd tried, ages ago, before she'd been chained to this bed. But she'd been frightened often enough by Adulfa's abrupt rising at a time when Tabitha had assumed she was alone and therefore safe. Adulfa would punch out the plaster and appear, nonchalantly bedecked with dust and cobwebs, or loom suddenly out from under a slab of slate in the garden path, picking moss from her sleeve. You couldn't even compare her to a wild animal, really, because she was completely indifferent to most of the things that attracted or frightened the beasts of the wilderness.

The yellow stain of light continued to seep into the room, making its dinginess and clutter too apparent. Tabitha forced herself to stay awake. It helped to put her fingers into the newest of her wounds. She had to keep moving from throat to thigh to flank, from one side of her body to the other. She was so accustomed to extreme pain that any lesser hurt quickly lost its potency. Adulfa could heal bite marks with her spittle, but she rarely bothered to perform this cursory maintenance for her captive.

The general standard of care had deteriorated. The pretty dresses, hot food, and other amenities of their early life together were no longer offered. Perhaps it was because Tabitha had been unable to convince Adulfa that she loved or desired her. Tabitha roused her internal defenses against this odd reproach. Why should she love someone who treated her so badly, who mocked her and called her terrible names, taunted and tortured her? Who could desire the battery that Adulfa called lovemaking? She'd been given nothing to eat for two days but a loaf of bread, which had quickly gone stale, and a few soft brown pears. Adulfa knew the difference between genuine ardor and the manipulative ways of a starving wench. If only I was a better actress, Tabitha thought bitterly. If only Adulfa had been a man. Men were so much easier to fool, and what they needed physically was relatively easy to provide, as long as you did not lose your sense of humor or allow them to think they were special.

No cheese, no chicken, no olives, no beef or salad or cooked cabbage, no wine and no hot chocolate. But there was always plenty of opium. Every night, Tabitha lost her struggle to resist its lure. But it no longer dulled the pain. Adulfa's teeth punched right through the strongest soporific. Tabitha took in the dragon's breath simply to avoid feeling even worse than being bled until she blacked out.

But right now, it was good to suffer. Pain was Tabitha's friend. She did not have the strength to fill and light the ivory-stemmed pipe with its bowl of pure gold, just as she could not spare the effort it would take to get out of bed, dragging an unbearably heavy chain behind her, and wash her nightgown in the sink.

Smoking opium alone, in the light of day, was a possibility only because Adulfa had left the lamp aflame. Tabitha could not quite believe her good fortune. She had not noticed its faint glow until Adulfa left the room, for a wonder, or the vampire would have filched that knowledge from her mind and pinched out its hot, wavering spirit. Perhaps it was a hallucination. She frequently saw things that were not real. It was as if Adulfa had drained the sanity out of her along with her blood.

Tabitha needed a little time to think about what she intended to do. A chance like this might never come again. Adulfa was intelligent and meticulous. Tabitha was not allowed to have so much as a belt for her robe. On the rare occasions she was fed meat, there were no bones in it. Not even a pencil was left within her reach. Adulfa wore the key to Tabitha's bondage on a silver chain around her neck. It was never left unattended. Even if it was abandoned by chance on a table, Adulfa had demonstrated that would be no help. She used to love to put the key just inches away from Tabitha's hand, give her a head start, and still snatch it up before Tabitha could touch it. She could also close Tabitha's fingers around the key and then make her forget that it was there, or remove her understanding of what it was for. Adulfa found it amusing to clasp her and feed while she witlessly clung to the useless tool that would have set her free.

Tabitha felt a wave of sick rage come up the back of her throat. There was a whining sound in her head, the audible aspect of a worsening headache. She quelled the rebellious anger with a great effort. The way Adulfa had stolen her knowledge, her perceptions, upset her more than being used the way Mongolian nomads used their own horses, opening a vein to drink. But she could not afford to lose the moisture that throwing up would take out of her. She would not think about the times when Adulfa raped her will as well as her body, and laughed at Tabitha for shuddering in ecstasy when things were done to her that she dreaded before they happened and felt bitterly ashamed of as soon as the pleasure and the amnesia were gone. To be made to beg for what you hated, and believe in the moment that it heated your loins until you could not hold still, to whimper while you received it and thank the one who granted you this favor--how could self-respect survive such a thing?

Was she really ready to die? Adulfa had shown her death often enough. Before Tabitha had understood that pleading for mercy was pointless, that there was no mercy in the vampire's resilient and parasitical heart, Adulfa had thought it was amusing to bring another victim home when Tabitha begged her to be left alone, afraid that one more feeding would end her life. Tabitha had seen a dozen men and women terrorized or hypnotized and then drained, left to fall lifeless to the floor. Big strong hearty loud thick men, slender and beautiful young boys, shy maidens and brassy women of the street, old ladies and new mothers and confused shopkeepers in clean white aprons. All of them turning one last pleading glance upon her, Tabitha, as if she could offer them some explanation or salvation. Thinking of their lost faces, she sobbed and dug her fingernails into the palm of her other hand.

Adulfa was then wont to force Tabitha to examine the bodies in great detail, to perhaps express her gratitude to the person who had died in her stead, and sometimes ravished her while she was bent over the corpse or propped up against it. Screaming did not make her stop, and neither did a stoic silence. She did with you as she willed, though Tabitha never seemed to be able to remember that bitter truth when she struggled with Adulfa, and could not accept it.

Death as one of Adulfa's scarlet suppers was dramatic and prolonged, but short compared to the length of time Tabitha had suffered in this gaol of a bedroom. Still, being burned alive was supposed to hurt a great deal. She was no Joan of Arc to go impassive into the flames, refusing to recant the holiness of her visions. And suppose it did not work? What if she only succeeded in scorching a little of the floor, perhaps the bedroom wall? Tabitha thought the punishment for trying to kill Adulfa would be terrible indeed. But she somehow knew, by the way the slightest movement left her breathless, by the way that breathing hurt and the light seemed unbearably strong, that she was close to the end. Her body was nearly used up. How many times had Tabitha cursed the same vitality that had allowed her to stay up for days at a stretch, going from one party to another? The departure of this stamina was more welcome than the back of a nagging mother-in-law. Even if Adulfa did not intend to kill her, any sort of rough revenge was going to snap the thread of Tabitha's life in two. So perhaps even failure would be a blessing.

A pang between her legs made Tabitha gasp, and she tried to shift her position on the bed without making herself pass out from the effort it took to rearrange her hips and legs. Adulfa was very rough with her, and got more violent every day. Sometimes it seemed to Tabitha that she forgot what she was doing or who she was with. Who was this Ulric that she called upon so often? Tabitha had the strangest feeling that sometimes Adulfa was doing to her prisoner some awful thing that had been done to her. But who would dare attack such a strong and savage creature? What sort of being could even accomplish such a monstrous crime? Whoever might be capable of that, she did not want to meet them.

As she shifted a fraction of an inch on the bed, the sad, sour smell of her own body rose up in Tabitha's face, and perhaps it was that indignity which made the decision final. She could not remember the last time she had been allowed to wash her hair or sponge off her skin. This was no way to live. Perhaps the smoke would be thick enough to smother her, so she would not feel the tongues of fire licking at the thin, dry leather and paltry fat of her mortal shell. Once the conflagration was set in motion, there would be no way to put it out and no way to escape. Even if her agony was intolerable, it would not endure forever. And if Adulfa had secreted herself away in pantry or attic, perhaps she would perish as well. Regardless, Tabitha would never be forced to stare at her lips again and ask, against her will, for a kiss.

She thought, with a wry smile, about the passage in Colette's story that had made her such a frenzied denizen of Parisian nightlife. It was only a paragraph about two women waltzing together in a cafe, and what a beautiful spectacle the author thought it was. When she first came to Paris, Tabitha had the usual extravagant dreams of a young girl who imagines she will set the world on fire. She did not know if she was fated to be an actress, a model, or a famous singer, but she was sure that some powerful person would discover her unique and fascinating self, and elevate her to the status of a star. Instead she found herself working in a shop that sold ladies' hats with several girls her own age who were, Tabitha was fairly certain, not ever going to waltz with her.

It had taken her months to hear a rumor of lesbian orgies at the Sleeping Dragon's Dream. As frightened as she was of opium dens and their sinister Chinese masters, she had dared to go there, hoping to at last encounter a woman who might kiss her or show her the kind of bliss that she'd never experienced at a man's hands, no matter how experienced or kind he might be. She had been so dazzled by the spectacle that greeted her that she had not known what to do. Paralyzed by her own excitement, she could only smoke more and more opium, which was insidious, affecting you far more than you realized at the time. Then Adulfa had closed her hand around Tabitha's elbow, and her life was over. Perhaps the encounter with the vampire was a just punishment for all of her perverse thoughts about other women's breasts and bellies.

If Adulfa had not been such a bitch, Tabitha thought, she might have found in her the sort of lover she was looking for. The vampire must have been beautiful when she was a woman. Her body was lean and strong, yet achingly feminine, and she was fearless in pursuit of pleasure. But her disregard for Tabitha's acquiescence or cooperation made her even worse than the first man Tabitha had ever allowed to undress and penetrate her unready flesh.

The thought of holding a gentle, lovely woman in her arms made Tabitha smile. Perfume. A trace of powder, two sweet lips outlined with color. She could feel a slight sensation of heat warming her aching body. Maybe there would be angels where she was going, and perhaps they would embrace her and offer her comfort for the suffering she had endured. Maybe they would have firm high breasts with nipples that were eager to be touched. Perhaps their Venus mounds would be covered with downy layers of snow-white feathers, instead of the coarse pubic hair worn by the daughters of Eve. Perhaps they would make her an angel as well, with huge wings that were strong enough to take her away from any harm or trouble. You were supposed to be happy in heaven, weren't you, and Tabitha could not think of anything that would make her happier than being able to feel the round, tender arms of a woman around her waist, and two soft breasts pressed to her own.

She slid out of the bed and shuffled to the windows. Too weak to yank on the curtains, she simply gripped them at the hem and leaned on them until they came down. She fed a corner of one of them to the lamp, and while the little flame gorged and made itself great, she searched for other things that would burn. There were some magazines. She tore pages out of them, tossed them into the blaze, then realized it was strong enough to take them whole. She dug stuffing out of the sofa cushions, then contributed the pillow case. Eventually the center of the room was an inferno, and she was bathed in sweat from the heat that came off it and from her own exertions. She skirted its edges and took to her bed, exhausted. But before she tucked herself in, she lifted the down coverlet and tossed it toward the fire, so that one corner was in harm's way.

The angels had skin like satin and eyes as big and blue as the china doll she had carried everywhere when she was a little girl. They caressed each other, but their love was not possessive; they did it only to show her what gifts they wished to bestow upon her much-abused body. And they waltzed, as light on their feet as dandelion seeds. Their moving hips promised Tabitha a surfeit of unearthly joy. The angels, beautiful sisters of the morning, were calling her in their enticing and compassionate voices, with the celestial music of the spheres all about them. Soon she would be free to go to them and join the dance.

Then the fire laid its hands upon her. It hurt more than even Adulfa could imagine.

The vampire was awakened by the unfamiliar sensation of pain. She sat up, disoriented by daylight, so befuddled it took her three seconds to understand that the room around her coffin was in flames. It too would have gone up if not for the fact that it had a steel lining. What providence had guided her to install this metal compartment behind the painting of Saint Sebastien's martyrdom? Adulfa gathered her power, hoping it would be enough in all this cursed glare, and lifted herself away from the danger. She was badly burned escaping, which hurt a lot. She knew that the damage could be repaired by a few extra feedings, but that did nothing to improve her temper in the short run.

From outside the villa, she could see that the fire had started in the wing where Tabitha's bedroom was located. Levitating and going closer, she was able to reconstruct the sequence of events. Tabitha had used the opium lamp to set it the villa on fire. Her bones had long ago been eaten whole by the roaring red-and-yellow riot of heat. The red-headed girl had hated Adulfa so much that she had been willing to die this terrible death if only both of them would perish.

It was not what Adulfa had expected. Not at all. She found herself filled with betrayal, hurt, rage. How dare she? Ungrateful bitch. Shaken by the unexpected pain of loneliness, Adulfa found herself liking mortals rather less than usual. She thought perhaps she might kill more frequently tonight than was absolutely necessary to restore her blistered skin. If only Tabitha had left behind some kin or dear friend that Adulfa could snatch up. But, like the vampire, Tabitha had been a solitary creature. Raised in an orphanage, once she reached the age of majority and left the nuns, she had no one to rely on but herself.

Hissing with shock, offended in body and soul, Adulfa went out to recoup her losses. Monsieur Alfred Ching had perhaps been a bit overweening in his dealings with her, had perhaps been a little too quick to assume that his word was law. The Sleeping Dragon would be very busy tonight. The voyeurs in their hidden cubicles would see spectacles they had not dreamed of, before their own dreams ended as abruptly as a moving picture when the projector accidentally melts a strip of film in two.

Patrick Califia is a bisexual transman and prolific author of essays, fiction, and poetry. He is also a licensed marriage and family therapist in the state of California, the divorced father of a three-year old autistic little boy, and a pagan minister through the Fellowship of the Spiral Path. In no particular order, his hobbies are quilting, cosseting his cat, corsetry, fist-fucking, caning, and Japanese bondage. He lives with a chronic pain condition, fibromyalgia, which for several years has made it difficult for him to work or lead a normal life. So it's a good thing that he doesn't give a shit about being normal. He hopes to continue to deserve the title of the author most often seized by Canadian Customs when he is hauled off to a nursing home. He'll give up his handgun long before he'll give up his laptop, and that's saying something for a guy from the Wild West.

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